I handed in my final assignment last week and I should probably be feeling relieved, but I am actually feeling all kinds of uncertain and confused.

I have loved uni, and I loved my course- creative writing has always been such a passion of mine and I feel very lucky to have been able to study it. But this is the first time I’ve ever not had a clear next step, I did my GCSE’S (well actually I didn’t because of COVID, but anyway), then I did my A-levels and I went to uni. It was always very clear and I knew what to do next. But there is no blueprint for how to be an adult. I wish there was, but alas, there is not. So, here I am, with minimal work to do and not a lot of direction, but determined to make the most of this time.

Don’t get me wrong, it’s very exciting to have time for myself and be able to pursue my hobbies and actually read books that have been sat on my shelf for months, but it’s also a little daunting. I have been applying for grad jobs for months now with little success, but maybe that’s okay too? I know it can take a while and you can’t fast track to success but wouldn’t it be great just to check for a second that everything works out?

Over my final year and the past few weeks especially, I have had a much clearer grasp on what I want to do, which is both scary and exciting, but if you can’t follow your dreams now when can you?

I hope I can update this page soon with some good news but until then, I guess the point of this post was to say to anyone else who is a soon to be graduate or maybe a recent grad, or anyone feeling a little lost: Be kind to yourself. You can’t figure everything out overnight; Rome wasn’t built in a day. But you can know what makes you want to do something, what excites you, what gives you a reason to get up in the morning. That’s when you know something is worth doing. Don’t give up, you’re not alone. Ready, set, go.

Yours, justjaslettering xxx